Thursday, March 7, 2013

for those depressed moments.

do you ever get those moments where you just don't feel good enough? or you just never feel good enough period? well, here's a crappy poem i wrote because i am SO having one of those weeks.

I see him
for the very first time
I'm amazed
"what is this?" I think
"this feeling inside?"
I hope it goes on

he duplicates
into him, and him, and him
"dance with me" one says
"I have to dance with you,
because she said said"
says the other
not even a glance
from the last

I ponder it
what of me?
what am I worth?
they might care
but i'm sure
that they don't

the one
the first
I ask
could it be real?
but no
i'm too young
because a year
to him
makes all the difference

and so I ponder again
what of me?
what am I worth?
they might care
but i'm sure
that they don't

the second
him
he says
funny
sweet
awesome
I lift myself up
I'm free!
but the next hour
no word is spoken
and i'm back to no worth

I ponder it
what of me?
what am I worth?
they might care
but i'm sure
that they don't

the third
the one of joy
I see him
he sees me
he sees her
they glance
"oh, him"
she says to me
"oh, them!"
he says of the others

and I sit there
silently waiting
"why not me?"
I think
"why not?"

I ponder it
what of me?
what am I worth?
they might care
but i'm sure
that they don't

next activity
one of hers says
"to me
from him
i'm happy
oh joy!"
I smile
for her
though inside
the flower has died

no more pondering
all hope is gone
she leaves the flower behind

and flows
right when he
was going to say
she was worth it
but it's too late
she's gone

oh, and if y'all are reading those. feel totally free to post a comment! let me know what you think of my 5 minute blog posts. ;)

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